8.12.2010
Waiting.
But, waiting, when it comes right down to it, certainly has its perks. It's what I've been doing since I moved. I've been waiting for a job. Don't get me wrong, I have not been idle by any means, but mostly just waiting for something to come through or out of all the hard work I've put in to the search. Waiting can be exhausting. I call people and leave message, but to no avail, no one calls me back. I am trying to think of this as a vacation, but selling that to my bank account is a different story. Something will work out. That I know. Will it be my dream job? Maybe. Maybe not. Someone else told me (I seem to have an abundance of very wise friends who are supporting me, and I'm thankful for them)that my first job may not be in the locale of my dreams, but to take it and shine and that will open up opportunities more to my liking. A great tid bit of advice that I have faithfully tucked in my cap.
It's tough starting a new chapter of your life. I'm still waiting for a huge part of that chapter to open up. I feel confident about the closing of the last one. I made sure to soak it all in and make the most of it. I'm proud to say that I accomplished that. No regrets. However, it's much harder work to open this new one. As mentioned above, I'm not sure I could do it without my amazingly patient, compassionate, and loving other half and my dear friends and family who are always ready with a listening ear, dry sleeve, tid bits of wisdom and endless support. A heartfelt thanks to each and every one of you!
So, for now, I continue to work and wait for a job. In the mean time I am still exploring Annapolis and settling in to living with Alan. I'm enjoying life and taking deep breaths as needed. :)
8.10.2010
Thoughts over coffee.
First let me recap the end of last week.
Friday - I had an interview at St. Luke's House in Bethesda, MD. The position I applied for was a residential counseling position meaning that I would be doing counseling, teaching life skills, medication management in group homes for individuals with psychiatric disabilities. The interview went really well and they want me to come for a second interview. It's definitely not my dream job, but I think I would have a really hard time turning it down. I can't keep 'beggars can't be choosers' out of my head. So, I've digested that and would be willing to accept it if nothing else pans out. It will just be a timing game.
I don't have all of my eggs in one basket though. I think I ended up applying for 3 more positions in Washington DC last week after I discovered that DC's licensing requirements are different than Maryland (Duh!) and I can actually do mental health counseling/therapy there instead of having to have a license that I am not eligible for like I need in MD. So, that was good news. I have just started searching out some places in DC to apply for, so we'll see what they have to say.
I think that's the major update for the job hunt. I'll definitely post more when I know more.
As for the weekend, it was a blast. Al and I spent Friday night farting around, making stir fry and we watched Valentine's Day. Decent movie. Saturday we ventured over to a friend/co-worker of Al's (Jen)for a little swimming, hanging, and grilling. Jen and her husband are from Michigan, so it was comforting to be around some fellow Midwesterners. We had a great time just relaxing and talking.
Sunday we were lazy and spent most of the day on the couch watching Season 2 of Friday Night Lights. Al is totally hooked! :) I love it! We ended the evening with a swim in our own pool and some grilled steaks, peppers and onions, and green beans. It was delicious!
So, I have officially be a Maryland resident for over a week now. Things are starting to sink in. Slowly but surely. I have quite a bit of time on my hands to sit and think about all that I have accomplished and what all has changed in the past few months. At times it's very overwhelming. But, I have things to keep me busy and today's agenda leads me to Borders for one of my favorite past times, wandering around a book store for hours on end. Plus I have a gift card! ha! Gotta love it. I also need to research the library. Getting a library card is definitely on my list of things to do also.
That being said, I'm going to finish my cup of cofee and a few more emails then hit it!
8.04.2010
Job Hunt.
So, that leaves me back at the apartment. Yesterday I decided needed to be a day of rest, so I did just that. I got in a beautiful nap and then lounged around most of the day. It was much needed, and I feel refreshed. Last night Alan and I officially added me as an occupant on his apartment lease and got some stuff figured out at the leasing office. Today I have some odds and ends of things to do, but basicially just relaxing. Al is working late, and I am gearing up for another interview on Friday @ St. Luke's House, another non-profit.
8.03.2010
Tuesday.
Today's agenda is up in the air. I may go drive around and do a little exploring of Annapolis. Job hunting. Napping. We'll see what else happens! :)
8.02.2010
Hello from Annapolis, MD!
Let's start from the beginngin... It's been a crazy month or so, and the last two weeks have been some that I will never forget. I have officially closed another chapter of my life and am working on opening the next one. I graduated with my Master's in Counseling on Saturday, July 24. It was a bittersweet day, but I can't imagine how it could have been any better. I was surrounded by people who love me and have supported me through thick and thin. I can't tell you that I feel any differently now that I can write my name as Marla B. Alexander, M.A., but I hope that when I get a job it will sink in. After graduation, Alan and I spent the week spending time with family and friends and packing up my stuff in Muncie and getting it ready for the big move to Maryland. It took a lot of hard work - blood, sweat, and some tears - to get it all sorted through, packed, and in the right pile (Maryland now, Maryland later, Storage, Goodwill). On Sunday (July 31) we made the trip together to Annapolis together with about 1/16 of my life's posessions. We stopped in Pittsburg to do some siteseeing on our way and had a great lunch. Yesterday we spent most of the day out shopping and picking up things we need to make his apartment our apartment. IKEA is amazing! So, we got back to the apartment exhausted and with significantly lower bank accounts. However, we are pretty much set with things in the apartment. The rest of my stuff will be coming with mom and dad in about a month! It hasn't really sunk in yet. But, I haven't really stopped smiling since I arrived. This is so exciting and much less scary than I origionally thought. I can tell you that I truly feel like a grown up. I have been one for quite some time, but the 'real world' is calling my name and I'm so close to being a part of it. Now, I just need a job!
6.06.2010
Letting Go Take Love
LETTING GO TAKES LOVE
To let go does not mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off, it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable, but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another, it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective, it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody, but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more.
Remember: The time to love is short.
(author unknown)
3.31.2010
Journal Article!
http://web.ebscohost.com/ehost/pdf?vid=6&hid=107&sid=4041515c-2b58-4cd3-a1e8-e818578356ff%40sessionmgr112
3.16.2010
Kodak Moment.
Too long.
Here is a quick run down of what's going as of right now...
1. The sun is shining and Spring is right around the corner! I can smell it!
2. I just spent a week (spring break) in Annapolis with Alan and we had an amazing time right up until the end when we both ended up sick.
3. I'm still sick, but starting to feel better.
4. I'm looking for a job in Maryland and am moving out there for a grand adventure in August after I graduate. I have some good leads, so keep your fingers crossed for me!
5. I have 129 days until I graduate, and obviously I'm counting them down!
6. I'm excited about my birthday coming up on Saturday. Year 23 had it's great moments along with some tragic ones, but I'm excited to see what year 24 will bring! I will be spending some time with Andy and then heading out for a Goddess treat and then dinner with mom, dad, and Toby.
7. Tomorrow I am taking a content exam to make sure that I have absorbed all of the wonderful knowledge that is appropriate for a Master's student who is allowed to graduate from Ball State University.
8. I have the most wonderful boyfriend in the world!
I think that about sums up what I can think of right now. Enjoy!
1.26.2010
12.06.2009
Loves :)
11.21.2009
Spotlight
http://psych.indiana.edu/PsychNotesOnline/Fall09/stories/alumni1.html
11.15.2009
You And Me
Wanna pack your bags, Something small
Take what you need and we disappear
Without a trace we'll be gone, gone
The moon and the stars can follow the car
and then when we get to the ocean
We gonna take a boat to the end of the world
All the way to the end of the world
Oh, and when the kids are old enough
We're gonna teach them to fly
You and me together, we could do anything, Baby
You and me together yes, yes (x2)
You and I, we're not tied to the ground
Not falling but rising like rolling around
Eyes closed above the rooftops
Eyes closed, we're gonna spin through the stars
Our arms wide as the sky
We gonna ride the blue all the way to the end of the world
To the end of the world
Oh, and when the kids are old enough
We're gonna teach them to fly
You and me together, we could do anything, Baby
You and me together yes, yes
We can always look back at what we did
All these memories of you and me baby
But right now it's you and me forever girl
And you know we could do better than anything that we did
You know that you and me, we could do anything
You and me together, we could do anything, Baby
You and me together yeah, yeah
Two of us together, we could do anything, baby
You and me together yeah, yeah
Two of us together yeah, yeah
Two of us together, we could do anything, baby
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bi4DZjiZEVo
11.08.2009
Weekend...
Friday: Great day at internship. Got a lot done and hand some fun with my supervisor just being silly and de-stressing. It was great. I came home and got a chance to veg on the couch and catch up on the TV I didn't have time to watch during the week (Gilmore Girls, Grey's, Private Practice) and took a nap. Woke up around 6 and headed out to Cheri's house to watch some Friends and eat some yummy pizza. It was great to just sit and laugh at one of my favorite comedies. Came home and slept gloriously till 9 AM on Saturday.
Saturday: Woke up to a really sweet text from my favorite Maryland man. :) Made an excellent cup of coffee. Went outside to enjoy the 60 degree weather. I walked for about an hour and had some good time with Mother Nature. Always soul soothing for me. I got to work on a little bit of homework, but I mostly just farted around and relaxed. That's what Saturday is for. ha! Then I went to Puerta Villarta with some of my favorite classmates. We had a grand time drinking margaritas and catching up on life. Then I went to see MJ's "This Is It" and it was fantastic. I was dancing and singing in my seat the whole time! It was a great way to end the evening.
Sunday: Another gorgeous day outside. It feels more like spring than November, but I'll take it! Unfortunately, I need to get down to business today and get some work done. I have a lot of things on my To Do list. But, the sun is out and later I have plans to catch up with the Kruczek/Spodek household for dinner before heading to work at study tables.
An amazing weekend, indeed! It's exactly what I need to recharge my batteries! Bring it on, Monday! (I say this now, not tomorrow morning when my alarm is screaming at me at 6AM)
11.02.2009
Quote of the day...
11.01.2009
Halloween Fun
10.18.2009
Words Of Wisdom...
8.10.2009
In my head... :)
You´re better then the best
I´m lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade
You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that
You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
Don´t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
8.05.2009
Summer Days...
Yesterday was my last day working at camp. I'm sad to stop working there, but am also in much need of some R&R. This has been my busiest summer by far. Taking summer classes and working at camp was quite a challenging endeavor. It was certainly far from the overall relaxing summers I'm used to. It pushed my limits physically, mentally, and emotionally, But that's what being an adult in graduate school is all about. :) It was a great experience no matter how tough, maybe because of it.
I am currently sitting on a porch swing while babysitting for a couple of really amazing girls while their parents are in Toronto for a conference. I feel more at peace than I have in a while. I can hear cars passing on the road in the distance and the birds are chirping quietly. I can hear the breeze in the trees, and the rhythmic clicking of my computer keys. All is right in the world in this moment. :)
In other news, I found out Monday that Craig lost his job. His firm let him go due to lack of revenue during this tough economic time. It's a very big blow, but I have every confidence that he and Emily will make it through this. They are tough, and they have a lot of love and support. So, send them thoughts if you get a chance. They can use all the help they can get right now.
I also found out yesterday that I will have a publication in the Journal of Personality and Social Psychology (one of the biggest journals in the field!!!) coming out soon! I got word that a project that I was involved with at IU was finally accepted! I have to give a heartfelt thanks to Ed, Josh, and Lile for including me on the project. :) It's killer!
My apologies for not updating more throughout the summer, but it can be summarized mainly by working, studying, going to class, seeing clients, and sleeping/eating. It was not very exciting. However, something very exciting happened about a little over a month ago. let's just say that in 8 days (but who's counting)I'll be flying to Maryland to visit a very special person I like to call my boyfriend. :)More on that later...
Ok, I'm gonna put this laptop away and pick up the book I've been trying desperately to read all summer. :)


